I can safely say that the Pre-IB year was the best year of my life, thanks to my girlfriend. I had someone to love, someone who loved me back. I had something to look forward to every day, some reason to get out of bed every morning.

Yeah, you're probably noticing that I'm writing in past tense.
I left her last Sunday, and I can promise that I have never been as broken in my entire life as I am now.

I keep playing Roxette on my iPod. Probably not a wise choice, since all it does is make me cry, but what can I do.

Don't really got the energy to do anything right now.

Roxette - It Must Have Been Love

Lay a whisper on my pillow
Leave the winter on the ground
I wake up lonely, is there a silence
In the bedroom and all around

Touch me now,
I close my eyes
And dream away...

It must have been love,
but it's over now
It must have been good,
but I lost it somehow
It must have been love,
but it's over now
From the moment we touched
till the time had run out

Make believing we're together
That I'm sheltered by your heart
But in and outside I turn to water
Like a teardrop in your palm

And it's a hard winter's day
I dream away...

It must have been love,
but it's over now
It was all that I wanted,
now I'm living without
It must have been love,
but it's over now
It's where the water flows,
it's where the wind blows

It must have been love,
but it's over now
It must have been good,
but I lost it somehow
It must have been love,
but it's over now
From the moment we touched
till the time had run out.